Sunday, April 7, 2013

Jacob John Owens

Jacob John Owens
 
Jacob is my well... I dont know. We are more than best friends... Its a complicated relationship... Hes 30,000,000 Miles away from me. I wish he was right here next to me.. Then he wouldn't have to do the pills. He wouldn't cut, I wouldn't cut. We would be in a close relationship. I wish I could actually call him mine and he wouldnt date any other girls... But its gonna happen... I'm sure he likes girls in Liverpool. They are all prettier than me. All girls are. Anyways.. Back to Jacob. Hes the most caring person in the world. I wish I was his. I want him to be mine... But hes not... :(
 
Hes always going to be my number one priority. I love him. So much. <3 But I don't know if he likes Josie... I think he may.. Jacob is the best thing that has happened to me. I wish he was right here. Like right now. Hes doing pills again. I want him to stay strong. I love him. <3 I want him to know that. I LOVE YOU JACOB!

Today just sucks, this girl said she tried to kill herself because of  me and the guy you love. Im really thinking about cutting. But if I do, Jacob will cut deep. I cant do that to him. I just love him so much. Faye said I shouldn't because he was all nice to her and then turned on her for no reason.. I doubt it was for no reason. I want to die. I want to kill myself. I cant trust Faye. Jacob has been here for me. Jacob is my bestfriend. Faye just came in and ruined it all. She is a real bitch. I really don't like her. She is not a good person. Shes a physco for trying to get me to turn on Jacob. Just no. I hope you all see this. Jacob is my one in 6 billion. Hes the only one I want. I want him right here more than anything else. I want my razor as well. But I want Jacob more. Jacob makes me feel wanted. He makes me feel good. He makes me feel like I have a reason to be here. I just don't know what to do anymore. Jacob is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I cant afford to loose him. I love him.
Okay. If you read this, this is a venting blog. I am suicidal. I'm depressed deeply. I've cut. I don't know how to vent my feelings without cutting. I am trying this to help me be able to express my feelings without cutting. Well here's about me.

Age: 13.
Days Clean: 3.
Hobbies: Softball, crafts, and music.
Kik: caitroyse
Skype: cait.royse42

Well contact me if you need someone to talk to. I'm always here for anyone that needs it. If you're thinking of cutting DON'T! It's addicting. Once you start its almost impossible to stop. If you have suicide thoughts and need to talk to someone please contact me. I need some friends. I have none. Thanks.
                                                               ~Stay Strong.~